In the previous post, it’s become brutally clear that I need to work as much on the non-writing details of writing projects as I can to give myself the best chances of success.
But those details aren’t as absorbing, as fun, as drafting fiction. I’ve trained and disciplined myself enough to stick to a routine while writing. I’ve published three things. I found how to increase the cognitive flow, the time in the zone where I’m really productive and having fun. With writing, even with revising and editing. I know, clearly, that all these other non-writing details come along with writing success. Right now, you’re one of a small group of people who know my stories are out there. (If you like them, you’re my ambassador, okay?) If I don’t market my writing and explore every project that I can, then I don’t earn a living… But here’s the confession: I’m running out of gumption before I run out of hours in the day. There’s no cognitive flow that I can find in any of the details that don’t involve actually writing. I’m trying to see things better, trying to think of the business as a challenge, the details as little treasure hunts. I could happily focus just on writing new fiction (there are so many stories to tell!) An added complication is that I need to keep writing some (so I have new material when the first ones start selling well.) And whatever income I’m not earning from writing needs to come from something else (like teaching.) I’m not lazing on my couch all day. But without tending to the business details, the chances of making a living at writing are slim.
So if anyone wants to say, “I told you so,” then go ahead. But if you think this means I’m giving up or even seriously hindered, then you don’t know me very well. I write about goal setting and steady progress towards those goals. It just seemed dishonest to do so without mentioned that some of the roadblocks are self-created. As soon as I see the daily missions instead of the daily grind, I’ll get through a lot more in a day. And I’ll remember that just having the guts to try, and getting as much out there as I have, are already big successes.
As Laotsu said, “The journey of 1,000 miles begins with a single step.” My feet are a bit tired at steps 34,456 and 34,457, that’s all. Wherever following our dreams ultimately leads us, we’re better for the journey. Just keep walking.